It’s been a busy and eventful few months. The biggest news I have mentioned, but it only gets better. Against all odds, against all logic, I have managed to meet the woman of my dreams. She is from New Zealand (who knew that my soulmate would be hiding on the opposite side of the world? Kind of a cosmic giggle, there, though I would prefer she had been nearby when this started. Like in the same country).
But be that as it may, the more time we spend getting to know each other, the more we see this magical kindredness; this inexplicable bond that can only come from two people who are meant to be together. We have many challenges ahead, but we are both sickeningly happy about the whole thing.
She is, like me, an author, and this is how we initially crossed paths. She wrote a review on one of my books and I wrote to thank her, and we exchanged some communications, and then eventually, she send just the right email, said all the right things, and a set of possibilities was born.
Now, we have become so close, so connected. I have never felt so understood, so appreciated, so adored and so loved. We are the very cliche of a whirlwind romance, and of two people who have fallen hopelessly, irretrievable in love. We have all the usual symptoms: constant, obsessive thoughts about each other, a constant need to be together (like Velcro), physical reactions to each other that are powerful even when we are not in the same room–a mere photograph or thought can engender the same response as if we were touching. I miss her MADLY right now. She is currently at her home in New Zealand working on that book, and will be back here in July for a while.
How did I manage to get so lucky? She is intelligent, funny, witty, genuine, sincere, ethical, sensitive, creative…and it is icing on the cake that she is also incredibly beautiful. She is feminine, just quirky enough to delight me, and I have to say that the New Zealand accent is sexy as hell. (Think Lucy Lawless/Xena). She is not just some things on my list of the Ultimate Partner, but ALL THINGS on that list. I can scarcely believe my good fortune, after a life of cursing the luck fairies. Perhaps there really is some force in the universe that evens things out. My only regret is that we didn’t meet earlier. Even one complete lifetime with her would not be enough.
As many of my readers know, in the last year I have been suffering, for the first time, with writer’s block. My last two relationships sucked the creative life-force out of me somehow. And that was capped off with betrayal and abandonment by my best friend, when I needed her the most. I still don’t understand how any of that made sense to her, but I had to find a way to move on, as painful as it was. I had not succeeded in doing that, and was circling the drain when Kate appeared. She managed to spark my creativity again, give me back those things that make my life worth living: Hope, Love, and Purpose. I knew that if I went much longer without them, I would likely not survive. So in a very real way, she has saved my life. And she has given me so much more than that. More than I ever dreamed possible. I am so proud to call her mine. She is my soulmate.
Another perk that I would have considered a scary specter, is that I am going to New Zealand at the end of the year, and will likely move there for awhile, where she has a house. I have always been fearful of getting on a plane, even more so of going out of the country. But I would board a hundred planes to be with her everyday. We will be getting married there (where it’s LEGAL), and after things are wrapped up there, we plan to return to Colorado and get a house in the mountains.
All very romantic and idyllic, and the stuff of dreams. But this is no dream. It is very real, and we both feel that we are in each others’ marrow. It’s as if we have known each other through several lifetimes, and have been searching for each other. The placard above the Door of my Life used to read, Abandon all hope, ye who enter here. Now it says Dreams really do come true. I have never felt a connection like this in my life. I adore her with every cell in my body. I finally know what it is to be truly happy….24/7. I have never felt joy like this. It has colored every other thing in my life and made it so beautiful.
Another thrilling aspect of this scenario, is that we both share the same passions–the strongest of which is the writing. We will be forming a Indie publishing business to handle all our books, soon, and are looking forward to that process.
We are also writing a book together, as well (Hanging the Moon–one that we think will be a series)…the process of which will begin in earnest after she finishes her current project, called Building Character. I managed to come up with the title for it, and she came up with a brilliant cover idea, which I rendered in anticipation of the project completion. The book is in first draft, but already, it is brilliant, and I feel it will do really well when we get it out in both print and digital form.
So, having moved to a new apartment for another year here, I will then be moving to another country–to be with my Kiwi girl, the love of my life. And the future is not just bright, but blinding–somewhat like a quasar.